Administrative note: I switched some days around. I was going to have today, the last day of week one, be much more fun. But some of the stories we tell ourselves in exploring our authentic selves made me shuffle days a bit.
For those familiar with the work of Byron Katie, you know that one of the paradigms she talks about is your “story.” We all have a story of who we are, where we come from, and what we believe about ourselves.
As soon as I hear her ask about someone’s story, I hear Steve Martin in “The Jerk.” Did you see that movie? It was one of my favorites as a kid. His story, “I was born a small black child…” which of course, makes us all laugh because with Steve’s white hair, it’s hard to imagine him being born a small black child.
Are there things about your story that feel so very serious to you now? Perhaps they are just as ridiculous?
Over the past few days, we took a deeper look at ourselves. We looked at the things that we believe are awesome, we looked at how much we deserved love, and we looked at our authenticity… who are we really?
The goal of this exercise is not to define ourselves. It is to really look at it, and then decide we can transcend it and expand beyond it. Some of those stories we told ourselves about our inauthentic natures can be changed in an instant.
Mark’s work in NLP helps people to change the stories. The first time I met him, I saw him change someone so deeply that she began to physically appear different before us. It was very powerful.
Change in an instant. You can do it yourself. Of course, it’s helpful to have someone like Mark to help us dissect our beliefs, but you can also do it yourself.
The past does not define who you are now, unless you let it. You are who you are now, and the past, in actuality, does not exist. At least it does not exist the way we think it does.
There have been many mystical traditions that teach of the ever-present now. They tell us that the universe “pulses” and that reality is being created and re-created multiple times every second.
There is no time. No past. No future. There is always the ever-present now being created and re-created. The beginning of the universe is happening now. You are being born and reborn right now.
What about past lives? Happening simultaneously. What about future predictions? Happening in probable realities in another focus.
And you… sitting in the middle of this vortex of creation… you are the director of this experience. Those memories of being poor or deprived as a child are happening now. Those memories of being abandoned, that event is happening now.
Does the idea that the universe — and you — are being recreated multiple times every second sound too far fetched? If so, know this. Those memories do not define you, though you use them to define you. You are trying to escape something that no longer exists. You are using the past that is no longer relevant to hold you in a place of powerlessness.
You are who you are today. You are not that child, that young adult, that person who did whatever it is you think you did.
You are pure consciousness, and the past has already been forgiven.
Even if you don’t believe that the universe is recreating itself multiple times every second, you’re going to suspend your disbelief with us today and pretend that it is true. Just for kicks.
What a good Guilty Catholic Girl!
When I was in 6th grade, I started playing around with shoplifting. I would ride my bike to the local store and walk out with a candy bar without paying for it. I probably did this 5 times or so, and then our house was burglarized. Someone had broken in, stolen my mother’s jewelry, some heirloom silverware inherited from my grandmother, and other items. I was raised Catholic. I immediately believed that the reason my house was broken into was God punishing me for stealing from the store. I felt so guilty that I had brought this on my family, I never stole again. Ever.
In fact, I took the belief to an extreme. I believed that if I wanted anything at all, I had to work very hard to earn it. If a candy bar cost 25 cents (oh, my age!), then I really needed to have 50 cents to deserve it.
That memory is still fairly vivid in my mind. And I need to change it. The reason it is vivid to me is that it is still running within me. It is still happening now.
And because I am in the middle of the vortex of that creation, I can change it. And, I can change it however I want.
That’s our exercise for today. Meditate and ask your higher self/source/God to present to you a memory of an event that frames your concepts about wealth. Think about something that happened to you many years ago, something that framed the way you think about wealth, abundance, and your life experience.
What is the story? How did it make you feel?
Today, we will use our powerful imaginative skills and create a completely different memory. Go back to that memory and change it. Completely.
For me, I would rather not feel guilty about stealing candy bars. So, guess what! I choose to change this. I imagine myself thinking about stealing a candy bar back in Gardener’s Pharmacy in the late 1970s. I look at them and consider it. And then I pick one up. I feel the rush of adrenaline as I still consider stealing. And as I feel that anxiety, I walk to the counter and pay for it. I re-create the memory in my mind.
And my house was never broken into! I remember coming home from the event at school and finding the house secure and protected. In fact, if you went into my mother’s basement right now, you would find that silverware in a box with a big “Z” on it. And her jewelry is still in her jewelry box. It’s covered with dust because no one has looked for it in a long time, but it is there.
Now I know some people who talk about revisionist history in quite a negative way. When a politician does it publicly, knowing full well what the truth is, it is a very different thing. The intent of the revision is important. Are you manipulating others for control? Or are you intending to free yourself from beliefs and events that no longer serve you?
There is no harm in revising your past if your intent is to free yourself. Change the way you remember those past events so that you have the ability to transcend what happened.
Here’s something else… if the past is only a memory, could you create a memory from scratch? What would happen if you created a memory of picking the perfect stock, winning the lottery, or making a different decision in the past?
You have to believe it before you can see it, so it would have to be something believable. The power, however, is in your belief. Suspending disbelief, making reality more malleable in your imagination, and playing with those concepts has incredible power.
Reality isn’t quite so serious. Remember how Low Rider showed up to tell me to lighten up and enjoy the process! Have fun with your experience!
Have you ever just sat back, closed your eyes, and imagined a completely different life experience? Floated away with a friend to a faraway place? I bet you did when you were a kid. When was the last time you allowed your imagination free reign?
Do it now. Go back and change something. Free yourself and imagine it different. Go forward and imagine all of the possibilities.
Leverage Your Future
In this ever-present now, you also have a future self. (Actually you have many different probable selves.) The self you are striving to be… the one that is happy, joyous, and creating the life of your dreams exists in reality in the ever-present now. You can always ask your future self for help. Your future self has all of the knowledge of how he/she got there. Ask your future self to remember you, to help you, and to plant ideas, inspiration and all that you need to get to that perfect place.
Have fun with these exercises!
You’ve made it this far. You’ve completed a week of the not very light fare Wealth Diet. How are you feeling? Is this overwhelming, just right, too much, or not enough? Do you feel any shifts happening in your experience?
Some of the exercises we’ve done so far are exercises you can do over and over again. And we’ll come back to them, too.
Okay, tomorrow will be lighter, I promise. We’re going to play with reality a bit and flex that reality creating muscle some.